It’s official – I have the best boyfriend/fiancé ever! I’ve been a bit down over the past couple of weeks. I keep thinking about Gloria and doing the ‘what if’ bit...what if I’d picked up her symptoms sooner…would she still be alive? What if a different nurse had been on duty that day? Would they have picked up Gloria’s deterioration quicker than I did? I must be driving Matt mad with it, because it’s all I can think about. It’s made me super-vigilant at work though, and I’m looking at every patient through sepsis-tinted glasses. Matt’s so patient though and wanted to cheer me up. So, when I arrived home from work one night, he had taken all the shiny new certificates from all of the courses I’ve recently completed, framed them and put them up on the wall in the dining room! He’d even put up my Slimming World certificate, proudly announcing the loss of a whole stone of fat! I have to be honest, it’s been more of a ‘Slimming Plate’ diet combination as I’ve been follow...

I’ve cried buckets this week. My mum thinks I’m pregnant because I can’t stop crying and keeps ranting at me that any hope of a decent wedding dress is dripping away. I know I’m not pregnant. I know I’m just emotional because I can’t stop thinking about Gloria’s funeral. I don’t usually go to the funerals of my patients, but Claire (another patient) asked me if I would take her. She’s waiting for a place in a nursing home as she needs support to manage her cancer, and she wanted to pay a special tribute to Gloria. Gloria had touched everyone’s lives on Eden Bay for the short period that she had been there and she had become particularly close to Claire. Gloria’s husband was living in a nursing home, but had been too frail himself to attend the funeral of his beloved wife. Claire told me that she couldn’t do anything further to help Gloria but she wanted to help her husband in any way she could. So, she’d written a poem – and she made everyone weep. Every time I thi...